It has only gone a few days, but my first Kickstarter campaign is already delivering new learning and understanding. As I looked over what happened during the time I've been sleeping it struck me:

• I am designing and creating my own responsibility!

...and I like it.

Digital Identity leads the way

Yes, this is clearest proof so far that my search for developing a better working Digital Identity actually works.

Many of the pieces I have thrown from my mind and out on internet are now coming back. This time with clearer structure and identifiable boundaries and guidelines to help me make the most out of previously unorganized and unstructured thoughts and ideas.

• Such as that Freemium and Premium is a validated and excellent starting point to build upon.
• That the internet makes sense out of the globalization movement to help us solve local everyday issues.
• That we have gotten attention span completely wrong - It has pivoted.

To name a few important thought experiments that have been developing over the last few weeks.

Have I been kickstarted already?

...think I have.

Only two nights ago I suddenly remembered that last year, when I heard Kickstarter was coming to Sweden, I started working on the campaign now launched.

That was shortly after I had written the I am a Follower and Thinker post, where I presented the idea of changing "Followers & Leaders" to the more modern and internet-adjusted version "Followers & Thinkers".

At the time I was debating the usefulness of dividing up humans in two such either/or camps as followers and leaders throughout history has made it out to be. Two camps where you can be a member of only one. Where the leader-camp is crowded, vocal and overall a very hostile well gated and guarded community to make yourself a name in.

Open has unfolded new ways

I have spent a considerable time of my years on the internet within various Open Source projects. Over the last 6+ years especially within the Drupal Community where I have met many brilliant minds to follow, think and learn from.

The last one year, or so, I have had to fight a more personal battle, occupied trying to figure out the reasons behind me not fitting into either the analog (my everydays), nor the digital (especially online) worlds.

Wherever I went, tried and started to work on something it always ended up in failures and disappointments. Wherever I poked my mind it felt I was causing more trouble than good. Not just for myself, but for practically everyone that happened to cross my line of actions.

As the number of troubles I caused grew, my health - particularly mental health - got worse. More and more I locked myself into own mind-debates, trying to figure out what the hell I was doing wrong. Nothing made any sense as:

• All I wanted was to help
• Make contributions to the common good
• Collaborate to learn and make progress

That was back then, now I have had almost a year to think.

A year decoupled from the societally obligations and other invisible musts that humankind have created, built upon and brought with us through history and until today.

Make responsibility your own

No matter if this Kickstarter results in funding, it has already helped me find a better way forward.

What started out as a tidy-up exercise quickly transformed into something I passionately feel I can take responsibility for.

Something to work from to help make sense out of the world around me.

Something I also feel will work much better than anything I have put my mind to before.

It has freed my mind of many stale musts and obligations that previously drained energy and wasted time.

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